Shades of Blackness

This piece is quite unfinished, but so is the story of the black race in America. As our story continues to shift and develop I'm sure this piece will too. It's untitled and probably won't EVER be done, I'll probably die not having finished it.

Untitled

I am apart of a nation within a nation

A nation of people united in division

A nation bonded by slavery

A nation struggling to grow.

My nation is misunderstood and stereotyped.

My nation screams and thrashes unnoticed.

My nation is diverse an ever changing.

This nation is grand and wide-spread.

And though fragmented is strong.

This nation contains the backs on which a great nation was built.

But knows nothing of it's past and it's future is unclear.

Hymnals and Folk songs gives voice to it's foundations.

..............

Sometimes I wonder if the reason we as black people are so divided as a race is because we are so diverse physically. It amazes me when people say we all look alike when our race has the most (NATURAL) variety. Our skin ranges from the palest ivory to the deepest coal and even those shades can be broken down further more with undertones of reds, yellows, and olives. Our eyes can be the lightest blues, grays, and greens or the deepest ebonies. Let's not even get started on our hair: from straight and frizzy to smooth and curly all the way to kinky and coil-y. All of these differences plus all the different nose, eye, mouth, and facial shapes make up for a very diverse race and that's before you throw in all the ways people can differentiate themselves from each other (perms, hair color, piercing, clothing, contacts and etc).

I think it's so hard for us to get past these differences that we can't see the bigger picture. It's been instilled within our race to hate each other for what we look like. Light skinned people look down on dark skinned people, no one likes the girl with the "good hair," everyone has to make fun of the "dark as tar" man. If we could see that no matter what the color of their skin or eyes or even what their hair texture is that we are all brothers and sisters then maybe we could be more united like our other minority counter parts (whose races have much much much less variety)

Live Laugh Love y'all

BLACK POWER (hehehe)

Hopeless Devotion

If love requires anything it requires devotion. Devotion to love is what makes love last, it's what allows love to inspire hope and hope to fuel dreams and dreams to start movements. It was Martin Luther King Jr's devotion to love that gave him the hope that things for his people could be better. This hope allowed him to dream and his dream lead to one of the biggest movements in American history. So why not be devoted to something especially love. Endless and unwaivering devotion can make anything happen be it good or bad. Hitler's hopeless devotion to his hatred of jews and all non-anglo saxons and minority group led to one of the largest genocides in history: The Holocaust. Devotion makes things happen.

Hopelessly Devoted

Hopelessly devoted.

Devoted to a dream whose frutation I might not ever see.

Devoted to a cause no one seems to care about but me.

Devoted to a world of fatasy

Hopelessly Devoted.

Hopeless siduations, no end or cure in sight.

Hopeless causes and no strength left to fight.

Hopeless days leading to desperate nights.

Hopelessly devoted

I'm hopelessly devoted to the thought of change.

Hopelessly devoted to the abloshment of pain.

My devotion to better is hopeless never waivering

Hopelessly devoted

Ummm yea that last "piece" was a bit rhymy for me but hey they all can't be winners right?? I tried, take it for the thoughts behind it.

Why Is Your Child So Bad???

Ok so it's been a while, actually months since I've posted a new blog but that doesn't mean I haven't been writing them. I write all the time actually I've just been way to busy to get them up here. So these next couple of blogs are random ones from the past couple of months.

Written 7/2009

Sometimes I think I hate children. Then I realize I don't hate all children, just bad children. I don't know what these parents are doing now-a-days but they need to get their ish together!! Most of the children I come in contact with are either stupid or bad as hades. I don't blame the kids, I blame their parents! I work at a summer camp instructing rising 4th graders and I have one child who's on the first grade level at best, two kids who learn EXTREMELY slowly but aren't stupid (book wise) and three who are on the level they should be on but are more spoiled then month old milk. Then there's one child in my class who is so smart but his mother fills his head with mindless junk and lets him watch R-rated movies, plus he just can't shut his mouth

Now I'm no parent but I do spend lots of time with children (I also work in the nursery at church and in the children's dept at a dept store) so I know a thing or two. SO here's what I have to say to all the parents and soon to be parents out there:

• First of all step up and be parents: Discipline your children, teach them respect for authority, TELL THEM NO!!!


• Make sure they get their education.


• Quit letting your children watch just anything on TV and listen to everything on the radio.


• Dress them like children, they are not little adults.


• Monitor their internet activity and who they hang around.


• Get them involved in positive activities.

At the end of the day it's your responsibility and job to raise a well-functioning member. Take it seriously!!

So I've already raved about how much I hate BET, with the exception of a couple of shows (and event he exceptions are getting old!), but now I'm about to add MTV to the list. In all actuality it should have been on my hate list a long time ago. But I must say there is one show that may restore my faith in the network: 16 and Pregnant.

Sure it's only been one episode but the one they aired tonight was exactly what reality television should be: eye opening and informative. So many teens out here have these ideal images of sex and even pregnancy. 16 and Pregnant shows how it really is, especially at a young age. It follows the teens from pregnancy to 3 months post pregnancy. Now everyone gets to see what they miss out on during pregnancy and in being a teen parent. Sorry, gotta take care of Bentley no parties tonight. So far I give the show an A+. And I'm still tickled at the fact that girl went into labor on a four-wheeler!!

So parents, big brothers and sisters, and anyone else with fast-tailed young folks in your life, sit them down and let them watch this show!

Letting it go

So I've finally decided to let go of the one person I used to think I was created for. I mean I still believe I was created for him but I think he is too stupid, oblivious and whatever else to see it. Actually I think he just cares to much about what others think. I don't have time for that. But I must say that there is a great guy in my life; one who makes it very easy for me to forget about the one who haunts my dreams. Did I forget to mention he haunts my dreams? Maybe I should give him a name: Mr. Giant.

Mr. Giant has done my wrong time and time again, but he was my friend first so I thought we could continue to be that. Too bad I always ended up back in his arms. This last time I said I was done and I meant it, still do. Unfortunately for me it's like he lives on my brain. Sometimes he's all I can think about. Sometimes I think I hear his voice. Most of the time he just appears in my dreams. One time he was visit my grandmother with me (strange because he's never even been to my home town). Another time he was at a social function bugging me. He was the first person I truly hated. I'm slowly getting over it. I just wish things ended better.

Either way he's made me appreciate the guy I've got. And I've stopped comparing the two because I realize Mr. Giant may have few flaws but the ones he has are huge. I'm not in the market of repairing men so if I can't live with you the way you are then I have to move on. Anyway here's a writing, poem if you will, about my situation (written by ME!!!)

Mental Adultery

I’m lying with him…

I’m thinking of you…

I wonder if he can see you on my mind

Taste you on my lips, smell you on my skin.

How can I be envisioning you now?

My mental betrayal sickens me.

I’m content with him, comfortable.

So how is it I still want you?

I mesh so well with him, we fit.

But I know I’m made for you.

I know I am what you need, what you want.

I play the fool giving you your destiny prematurely.

I should wait, wait for your realization.

How could you not see it? See this?

Is it really possible to be this blind?

Yes, it’s possible because I can’t see him.

I must be deaf. I can’t hear him either.

Maybe I’m defective, I can’t trust him.

Then again I can't be defective. I see you

Hear you, trust you, and know your unsung melody.

It’s you that blocks him from me.

It’s you that I’m waiting on.

Still thinking of you…

Still lying with him…

~~~~~~~~~~~~The Continuation~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I accept who he is;

Acknowledging his faults, embracing them.

I wish he was you, though.

Why isn’t he you?

Why aren’t you the one next to me?

His smell is inviting, but it’s not yours.

Your scent is intoxicating.

His taste is sweet but yours is delectable, irresistible.

It’s your flavor I crave.

It’s your body and touch I desire.

I enjoy time spent with him.

But it’s during our time together that I come alive.

How can I be so dissatisfied with him?

I wish I could get you out of my head.

You are intertwined with my happiness.

Please just come to me, stop my yearning.

I’ve become an absentee lover;

Guilty of alienation of affection.

I pretend his touch is yours, his kiss is yours.

Do you realize what we have? What we could have?

I guess not, I guess I’ll wait…

Wait here with him…

Religion...no thank you

I recently realized that I don't believe in religion. It's not for me and I doubt it ever will be. Now if you know me or have read some of my other blogs then I know you might be a little confused right now. I claim to be a Christian and by definition of the word I am one. I believe that there is only one true and living god and that He sent His one and only son, Jesus Christ, to die for me so that I could have everlasting life. But I don't believe in religion!!

I hate rules, absolutely positively hate them. I find them constraining and a negative force on my creative and free-flowing juices. I'm like the wind and rules are like huge brick walls stopping me from blowing freely. I just can't dig it (probably why I hated high school so much). Now you're asking "if I don't believe in religion then how can I believe in God?" Well that's simple, I believe in RELATIONSHIPS NOT RELIGION!!

For me religion often times focuses too much on rules, rituals, and traditions and not an actual relationship with God. People wonder how they can become saved and not feel any different. Well it's because they are focusing too much on trying to obey these rules and not trying to love and develop a relationship with God. People don't pray from the heart they pray from these templates they've read or learned. Focusing on rules and living the "religious" lifestyle is how so many people backslide and end up giving up on God. I just can't get down with that. I'm not a template, color in the lines kind of girl. I've got to love and learn God in my own way.

I also hate when people only are a part of religion for what they can get out of it. They don't want and love God for God but for what He can do for them. They don't want to be close to God, to experience His love, they just want Him to better their lives. Their prayers are like a request list when they should be more of an open flowing conversation. Here's how I explained to a friend of mine:

It's like a marriage. You should want to marry someone because of who they are
not just to get married or what the marriage could do for you. You shouldn't get
married because you just want a wedding or the wedding gifts. Nor should you get
married to a person because they are rich or have great connections. It's the
same with God.

Yes, God has the power to bless you financially and in other ways but that's not what it's always about. Your relationship with God shouldn't ONLY be about Him removing your debt, healing your illness or whatever else is an issue in your life.

I honestly and truly love God and before this Sunday I was almost frustrated with my religion. I'd take two steps forward and fall several back. Now I know it's because I can't rely on earthly people to tell me how to live my life. I know that as I develop my relationship with God my moral compass will become stronger and my ability to hear him when he speaks will become better as well. I won't have to rely on the rules of Christianity because God will place HIS rules in my heart and mind. I'm in no way knocking the church. As a matter of fact I still go and it works for me. It helps me find God and myself and define my relationship with him. But I still say it's time to put God first and religion second.

On that note I'm out!!

You Want What You Can't Have!!!

Gosh it's been a minute since I've blogged!! But last time I did it was about my least favorite subject in life: LOVE/ MATTERS OF THE HEART. Well first let me say we've made some sort of commitment to each other. The world girlfriend was used { :-O} But I digress...

Why is it as soon as you get someone new, anyone you used to date, were remotely interested in, and even some randoms come out of the wood-work trying to "holla"?? Was I not as appealing when I was chillin doing me alone? Or did you think you could run back to me when you got ready and now my new guy is messing up your plans?

I've been single since November and sure I've talked to a couple of guys but no one serious then as soon as I find someone that makes me happy the ex is getting on my darn nerves trying to get back in my life. I mean I have no issue being his friend (that's all we ever should have been because I never actually liked him), but get off my jock. Why are you now calling, trying to bribe me to spend time with you, constantly bugging me about coming over. Desperation is a real turn off and even if I wasn't taken I still wouldn't want you. I mean you had your chance and you blew it. All you did was waste my time.

Now as far as the former potential boos. I mean some of these guys are justified in still coming after me, I still haven't made it perfectly clear that there chance has been cut short, so on that MY BAD!! But for the guys who let me go before we ever had anything, why are you trying to start something now. Here's the place where I get really specific: OK this guy started something with me, then decided he couldn't handle it...ok I'm a big girl I can deal. So we're back on the friendship path, then as soon as I start talking about my "boothang" and my "baby" you want to start flirting, mentioning my "assets" and etc. Negro I'm so done!!

And then the randoms....dudes who never showed you a ounce of interest before want to "chill" and "get up" all of a sudden. This stuff makes no sense. It may be your homeboy, your exes friend, random guy from your math class, but trust and believe they will come out of no where wanting some of your time and probably some of something else you have.

I mean I really don't understand why these guys operate like they do. It's obvious you don't respect relationships and why would you want to be with someone that would mess around on their man. Doesn't that mean they will mess around on you? And did you ever think that the only reason you want a taken person is because their taken and you want the unattainable? At the end of the day you want what you can't have. Too bad!!

Breathless...Drowning in a sea of thoughts*

Normally I don't use this blog to speak on my personal life but here I go anyway. I'm so filled with fear and anticipation that I can barely sleep or sit down or even think straight. I don't know what this feeling is but I can't shake it. I don't know which I fight harder the smile that comes on whenever you're around or thoughts of you when you're not around. Then again maybe I fight how you make me feel harder than them both. See now I'm rambling...

The you I'm talking about is this guy. This blog isn't directed to him or about it...or maybe it is. Things between us are moving so fast but it feels so natural. Conversation and chemistry flows between us and sometimes it feels so wrong. I'm just waiting for something bad to show up or for someone to tell me it was all a game, a trick played on me. He gives me this feeling in my stomach...not butterflies but almost like a ball of air is in me waiting to be filled or something. IDK. I can't describe and I'm failing miserably. Sometimes I hold my breath without realizing I'm doing it and have to remind myself to breath. Maybe that action describes the feeling he gives me best.

He makes me feel so good but so bad at the same time. He's changing me and that alone is scary enough but also I don't know what to expect and I'm not in control and that just adds to the fear. I want to know what this feeling is and what this "friendship" is going to lead to. I've had my feelings hurt before and I don't want that again (although I know it will happen) but I've never had my heart broken because I've never been in love. I've been in lust before but never this deep. This is so scary because it's not logical...you can't deal with this in a logical form because matters of the heart are never logical. How can I be so comfortable with someone who makes me so nervous. He's like an unwashed fruit...sure you eat it and savor the taste but you have to wonder if it will hurt you in the long run.

I just want to run or go forward in time. I need to know what this is. I want to run from this feeling. I want to breath again. Now I understand how feels to be waiting to exhale. I just want to fly away. My mind can't take this, not along with the other things going on in my life. He told me my random questions are starting to get less random. Maybe they are, maybe this has affected my thought process. Help me now. I gotta define this and soon. It's messing with my head. Last guy who gave me any kind of feeling left a bruise in my side and I pursued him to hard. Maybe I better quit while my heart is still in tact.

*Thanks to E.L. Marsh for the title. Words I'd be searching for.

Black Star Power....Yeah Right!!

Once upon a time BET was the heat and a station I could actually respect as a voice for black people. Back when BET wasn't owned and ran by white people. Now don't get me wrong, I have no issue with white people, I just believe that they can't speak for blacks. You can't tell a story you haven't experienced or seen. What happened to Teen Summit, Tavis Smiley and Midnight Love. Now we Uncut and rip offs of MTV shows...PLUH-EASE!! How could you get rid of such great shows? Even 106 and Park which started off great is now GARBAGE. You used to have host you could respect now you have Rocsi....enough said. First you replaced Midnight Love with Uncut now it's whatever show or movie you can buy for as little as possible! And I guess black people don't really like the news right? That's why you got rid of the nightly news and replaced it with 30 sec sound clips every once in a while. It's sad....I even miss Cita, at least I got to see the entire video back then.

I mean, I have no problem with the station growing and expanding but at what expense. Bladwin Hills is nothing but the black version of Luguna Beach. It feels so fake and scripted that I can't really get down with it. Blackbuster movies are almost always the worst: Uncle P, Soul Plane, etc. I mean I have no real problem with getting shows from other stations but to fill up the entire day with them is...sad. But I will admit that I love some College Hill and Keyshia Cole despite the fact that both show black people at their worst half of the time. As far as Harlem Heights goes, the jury is still out but the people do seem very fake and script...IDK.

Can we either change the name of the station of bring back some of the goodness? Stop creating pseudo thugs and booty shaking girls. I would like to enjoy BET again and for the station to really be black star power.

Musical Addiction

What makes songs stick in your head? I mean you hum it all day, blast it when comes on the radio, make it your ring tone. I get so addicted to some songs I play them over and over and over again. Sometimes it's like I'm making love to the music; dancing with my eyes closed letting the melody caress me. I hear it when it's not on and it's like it's my song and mine alone. Like they words being sang are for me and by me.

I'm on "Gibberish" by Ryan Leslie soooo hard right now. I honestly can't tell you how many times I've played it today and I've danced all around my house to it. Not that "oh I'm so cute" dancing either, it was that let the music move you type of stuff. I know exactly what Ryan is saying although as the title suggest the song is most gibberish. It describes how I'm feeling right now and if I'm not feeling that way even for a second it takes me back there!! I'm surprised I could sit down long enough to write this!!!

Mr. Ryan Leslie

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There are some other songs I'm digging.... (they're not "Gibberish" though haha):

• "Birthday Sex"- Jeremih


• "Chocolate High" -India.Are ft Musiq


• "Maps"- Yeah Yeah Yeahs


• "Breathe"- Taylor Swift


• "Come On Get Higher" Matt Nathanson


• "My Love" - Mary J Blige

Can you tell how I'm feeling now ??hahaha

Easter for Atheist...WTF

I'm starting to realize a lot of things annoy me and this is just another one to add to the list.

I can't stand it when people who are not Christians celebrate Christian holidays. I really can't stand it when atheists celebrate Christian holidays, to me it says you just want a reason to get gifts. Most atheists don't respect religion, they respect your right to believe in whatever you chose but not religion itself. It's already bad enough that holidays have become so commercialized but then for you to basically to devalue it even more by celebrating it knowing you don't believe in the reason or the background of the holiday. UGH it just gets under my skin. At least Jews and Muslims have respect for the Christian religion although they do not believe that Jesus is the savior.

If you're an atheist good for you, but why don't you just sit at home and watch TV when the rest of us are out celebrating our religious holidays. You don't believe in God so why celebrate the birth of His one and only Son? It doesn't matter to you whether He was born or not because you don't believe in who He and His Father are. Do you just want gifts or a reason to decorate your house? Why celebrate Easter? It's to celebrate Jesus' resurrection and since you don't believe in that what are you celebrating? Do you just want a reason to run around and collect eggs because you don't even get pretty Easter outfits to wear to church because YOU DON'T GO TO CHURCH.

You don't see Christian's celebrating atheist holidays. Now that I think about it are there any atheist holidays? I mean even Halloween and Valentine's Day are a Pagan holidays and they believed in many gods. Could ground hogs day be considered a atheist holiday? I mean that's about all I can think to give to them because Labor Day and Memorial Day are national holidays. Well I guess I can see why atheists are so desperate to celebrate anything. Atheist are kind of like lost people. Oh well, that was your personal choice just stick to celebrating birthdays, births, weddings, and graduations. That should be enough, if not become a Buddhist, Hindu, Jew, Muslim, or my favorite ☦ Christian (☺ ← I'm a little biased)

You start it, you finish it!!

Although this should not have to be said to people, I find that most folks now-a-days need to hear it: IF YOU START SOMETHING FINISH IT!! And DON'T START SOMETHING UNLESS YOU ARE SURE IT'S WHAT YOU WANT!!

Ok, I'm just not understanding people rushing into things or initiating things and then running away once the ball has started rolling. If you can't keep up with the ball or aren't willing to go where the ball leads you then I suggest you leave well enough alone and let that ball stay stationary. In running away from things you are at least wasting people's time and may also be wasting money, resources and playing with folks emotions. There may even be someone who wants to be in your poistion but can't because you took that oppertunity and wasted it!!

RELATIONSHIPS: I'm speaking from experience on this one. Now don't start something with someone and then back out. I've had a guy initiate the feelings in my mind, then decide that he couldn't handle what everyone else would say about he and I. #$%$$# What??? You should have thought about that before hand, because I darn sure wasn't thinking about you before you went out of your way to make me think about you!! You started it now don't be too scared to finish it! Oh too late I'm gone!

Also if you have something going on with someone and you want to end it....END IT! (even I was guilty about this once upon a time) Don't just stop calling and answering the phone, avoiding them and whatever else. Let them know it's over and why. Nothing is worse than having something being over but having no closure. No closure means the doorway is still open to having emotions flowing freely whereever and whenever they chose. And love turns into hate mightly quickly!!

JOBS and SCHOOL: There is absolutely ntohing wrong with changing your mind about what you want to do with the rest of your life, but please please please don't change your mind because what you first decided to do turned out to be to hard or time consuming. Every job and career path has it's own set of obsticles and even your dream job or major is going to have something about it that you're not going to like. Don't settle for less because it's easy. And even if it is just a part time job don't quit because they made you work the one Friday you wanted to go out, get over it and suck it up! It's a recession be glad you've got a job!!

PLEDGING: Now normally I wouldn't give a rat's behind about this but, it's becoming an epidemic as well!! Why the heck are you gonna pay all this money, get on line then decide you can't take it and quit?? Do you know where the money tree is? Because if so I need the hook-up!?!? Did you not know it was going to be hard work? Ugh STUPID! And by your stupid butt getting on line there is some man or woman mad as heck that they didn't get on (poor them dreams crushed). Even worse are those who dreams about being a member of ABC Frat or Sorority but heard that CDE didn't go as hard or only had to be online for a week so you pledged them instead!! DO Betta!!

With all that being said, it's time for many people to man up and quit coping out! Do what you do but finish what you do as well...

RiRi and CB-My take on it!

Everyone's talking about it and now it's time for me to sound off about it! Yes, Chris Brown went to town on Rihanna's behind! We all saw the pictures and heard what went down. But guess what? I don't care! First of all I don't care about their personal relationship and who cares if they're still together or not? I don't, if she prefers to be knocked upside the head now and again who am I to tell her that it's wrong? All I have to say is Chris Brown can still sing and dance his butt off! He puts on a GREAT show and Rihanna's not my friend, I don't owe her jack so I will still be going to his shows and buying his cds!! And like Forest Gump says, that's all I have to say about that.




Side note: Domestic violence is never right, if you want to get out leave!!

The Truth About Your Man and Me!!

Before you read listen to this song ("If Tha Mood" by Esthero)Lyrics at the bottom of this blog!

I know what you've heard about your man and me and I'm here to set the record straight! If you think your man is cheating on you, then more than likely he is! Is it with me? Maybe, then again maybe not. But guess what honey? I'm not your friend and my loyalty does not lie with you so if I feel the need to slide up in between you and your man then I will! I am not the problem, your relationship is! If I am/was able to get in between the two of you that means there was a crack in your foundation that your stupid self failed to fix! But anyway let me get to telling you how I got what's supposed to be yours! hahaha

Now if I just met your man and we exchanged information then chances are I never knew about you! But then again maybe I did and didn't care (like I said I'm not your friend). The fact that I got him means that you either aren't really what he wants, aren't fulfilling his needs, or just aren't appreciated by him. Either way the fact that he strayed NOT MY PROBLEM! But you and he still have a chance because I'm probably just an intriguing person with a beautiful face, he likes me but it ain't love. WORK ON IT!

Now if he and I were friends back in the day and he's just now getting at me, that means he's had a thing for me since way back when! In all honesty I'm probably not dealing with your man on anything other than the friendship level. But if you suspect he's cheating, he is, it's just not with me! Either way I"m his friend, not yours so...once again NOT MY PROBLEM! Now you and he just might be screwed for one of two reasons: (1) He's got my scent in his nose and you will never be me and he won't be happy until he has me!! (2) He may not be cheating with me but he is cheating with someone else. But hey, you may be able to work things out (stupid broad)

Now if he's my ex, former lover, etc then homeboy is just hooked on the memory of me and will do anything to get back in my good graces. He's doing things for me that you couldn't pay him to do...SORRY ABOUT THAT!! You really need to worry about me and do whatever you can to fix your relationship with your man because IF I decide I want him back it's OVER for the two of you. When you're not in his room, I AM! When he's not in his room HE'S IN MINE! When you are in his room, he's texting me, thinking of me, and yearning for my touch! The worst part of your situation is that even if I want/have nothing to do with him, you're still competing with the ghost of me!

No matter what your situation is, and what my relationship is with your man don't take your frustrations with your relationship out on me! I don't fight over boys or men. Either they want you and want to treat you right or they don't!! So... STOP CALLING MY PHONE, STOP TEXTING ME, STOP MESSAGING ME!!! and most of all STOP BAD-MOUTHING ME! It's not like I took him from you hahaha! Keep his sorry behind!

OH and I don't share men so think about that before your half-retarded behind calls me from a private #!!


"If Tha Mood" by Esthero

Remember when we used to?.. We can do that again...
I know I said it was over but if you ever wanna come over
I think I got what it takes to make you feel nice
Because you gave yourself to another
But I suppose you haven't forgotten what my love tastes like
And she won't fuck you like I do and you know that it's true cause
I have what she hasn't got and I remember all your spots so

If tha mood should hit ya and ya wanna, baby I don't mind
A little taste may relieve the tension I feel inside

Curl up in my cozy web this unbelievably delicious bed
Oh, don't say no, that's not how this should go
I've thought about you often, this feeling hasn't gone rotten
Let's take a spin round that old block again you say
She won't fuck you like I did, she's not into that wild shit and
I have what she hasn't got...really? Well then

So if tha mood should hit ya and ya wanna, baby I don't mind
A little taste may relieve the tension I feel inside

Shakari Nite: you always know what things to do to keep me wanting you,
and also all the things to say to keep me comin your way
due to the beauty preferred, its hard for me to be true to my girl
cant be trust wit you in my world (i'm glued to the kush, ya heard?)
no gas, my tanks empty, i'm stuck in your town
the plan's to gently buckle you down and fuck you now...i wanna fuck you now
only the truth is wit me, now im phenen to screw you swiftly
now I don't mean to be rude with tha lips b.
i'm guessin the mood just hit me

If tha mood should hit ya and ya wanna, baby I don't mind
A little taste may relieve the tension I feel inside
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Obama's not a Duke fan!

Clearly our President {{Barack Obama}} knows what many people are in denial about: UNC will beat Duke in the NCAA title!! UNC is number one for a reason, because they're the best!! Yes Duke beat UNC but it's ok, Carolina had to let them have that one game so they wouldn't feel so bad about not attaining that NCAA ring!! So when filling out those brackets let's think presidental and put UNC in that top four. Better than that go one step further and put the Tarheels as #1 the champs! Tarheels, get with it!!



See Obama pick UNC

On another note a big congratulations to the ladies of UNC Charlotte and NC A&T!!!

Race, Ethnicity, and Nationality

I'm am one that's all for embracing your heritage and where you come from and I acknowledge the differences from culture to culture. I also don't believe in defining a person by race alone, but I hate it when someone says "I'm not white, I'm **fill in NATIONALITY here**" (i.e. I'm not white, I'm German or Italian or whatever else). Ugh, that just does not make any sense. That's like me saying, "I'm not black, I'm American." Race and nationality ARE NOT interchangeable. When you fill out paperwork and they ask for race, you don't see Italian, African, or any other nationality so why would you try and correct someone when they call you white? It's what you are! Are you ashamed of it or something? Would you prefer the term Caucasoid?



Maybe it's silly of me to let something so silly bother me, but it does. I just want people to accept their whiteness just like I want everyone else to accept their race!

And while I'm on the topic of race, I'm so glad that people are openly admitting to wanting to be black. {{Man this blog is going to make me seem like a racist or a black supremacist}} Back in the day white people snuck into the "black world" and sopped up what the could of our culture. Then they drained it of all the juice and incorporated it until their own. I mean it's how Elvis (with his racist self) became famous. In today's society it's more than just our music, it's our style of dress, our attitudes, and strangely enough the traditions of our Greek-letter organizations. All of a sudden historically white fraternities and sororities are party hopping, stepping, doing hand signs and calls. I guess imitation is the greatest form of flattery but dang. If you want to do all of this so badly why don't you just join an NPHC org!!



Anyway that's enough of that! Just know I love all people, no matter their color, creed, religion whatever!! Stay blessed!!